Burn, baby, burn.

Bonfire.

Tonight.

School grounds.

Booze.

(Possibly boys, but who cares, really?)

And a much needed partay-ing.

I need to start off with wine. A huge ginormous bottle. Because I am determined to pass out on the muddy grass, with a beer clutched in one hand and a pennet in the other. And if you stoop low enough, to feel my pulse or listen if I’m still breathing, you just might hear a few anecdotes that’s gotten me thisfar in life (ie.nowhere). Because, apparently, “this is as bad as it gets”. What do you know, you coward. That’s right people. Walk away. Walk away from the crazy and live a boring, oatmeal-eating kind of life. Fuck. I need a drink. And a huge fucking fire to get me started.

BLUER THAN BLUE

Blue Eagle The King!

What can I say? It was one awesomemotherfucking game! Fine, I wasn’t actually IN the dome but I was there in spirit .. and voice .. and stomping .. and booing Greens .. and Halikinus.

Clinically Insane and I were supposed to catch the tail end of the game at NSG but her bitch of a boss didn’t leave early and neither could she. Thus, I was stuck in the office watching a live streaming of the game like an idiot. I was pacing up and down, yelling obscenities, in full view of everyone else that didn’t give a shit about the game. Finally, as Uneditedmara is wont to do, I said “Fuck it” and just decided I couldn’t take this lone cheering anymore. Man Adik (upon his request, shall heretofortwith be called Uber Guapo Medyo Adik Man (or UGMAN), in light of recent drinking events) was kind enough to wake up at the end of the 2nd quarter and meet me at NSG.

Aaanyhalikinuuu .. pictures! Not mine, of course. I’ve gotten too lazy to take out my camera because everyone else’s is bigger and prettier and more powerful .. Camera envy .. *Homer drool*

Fly high. Fly proud.

“Why the Ateneo needs Tiuperman”

I can’t hear yoooouuuuu!!!

Inamo, La Salle!
(They didn’t even come back out to receive their medals. Bitterness much?)

Meir-effer

MAN LOVE!

The Sixth Man

The Championship Team

ONE BIG FIGHT!!!

Blue Eagle, The King!

And God saith, “Ateneo shall be number One.”

UGMAN and I promptly drowned a couple bottles of celebratory beer while I was heckling him and he was conceding defeat with all the bitterness of a La Sallite. We moved to a cheaper beer station (ie. Krocodile) and rang up Red Bull, also a former officemate. A sisig and more beers later, I found myself a boyfriend in Red Bull. Can I just say that having a pretend boyfriend makes me more aware that I am NOT actually a nice person. I was drunk and WTF-ing myself at this point, to which, the boys suggested we leave Greenbelt and head off to Valero and drown a couple more at Chilipeppers. Boys, boys. I only have one teeny, tiny lightweight stomach. And so after luving it up with Red Bull and putting on a damn good show, I hauled ass home, with images of blue and eagles and Chris Tiu spinning in my head. Before my head hit my pillow, I realized that I just might have found my second Happyness, True Happyness of the year. And that having just two was good enough for me.

(Thanks, La Salle )

Just breathe ..

I’m just effin’ around with the layouts. I’m feeling dark lately. Must be the weather and all the fuckery it brings.

And here I thought it’d be green ..

Your Mind is Purple

Of all the mind types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places – or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Mind?

Intro to Ateneo – La Salle Games

Re-posting from Glen.

ADM 102: Introduction to Ateneo-La Salle Games

Course Description
The course introduces the student-cheerer to the dynamics and principles of the Ateneo-La Salle rivalry. The course employs both theoretical and application dimensions. The theoretical phase exposes the student to the history of the rivalry, the tradition of cheering, the construction of the ideal Atenean 6th Man, and other theoretical concepts.

The application phase on the other hand requires the student to put into practice all the theoretical principles. These practices include, among others: effective skills in lining up for the games, cheering (pre-game, during the game, half-time and post-game), jeering, heckling, creating effective posters and banners for one’s favorite players and posing and smiling for Fabilioh.com.

Course Objectives
By the end of the course, the student should have been able to:

* understand what it means to be the Sixth Man
* understand the difference between an Atenean and La Sallite
* integrated himself with the community of believers
* develop his school spirit

Course Outline and Reading List

Chapter 1: What is School Spirit?

* Required Readings:
o Excerpts from the “History of the Ateneo”
o The student’s “OrSem Manual”
o “The Ateneo Cheerbook”
o “Who and What is the Ateneo Sixth Man?”
o Ruel De Vera’s “The Eagles Have Landed”
o Selected Speeches of Angelico Sinjian (Ateneo Blue Babble Battalion)

Chapter 2: Knowing the Enemy

* Required Readings:
o SUSPENDED! The 2005 UAAP Scandal
o “We Must Come From/Hit Them From Behind”
o “What is Sports Science and Translation Management?”
o “How To Spell Correctly During Cheerdance Competition”
* Optional/Supplementary Readings
o “No Cheering During Time Out”
o “Get that Ball! — UE”
o “Why are there Two Birds in UAAP?”
o “Who let the (Bull)Dogs out?”
o “You Cannot Overcheer Us!”
o “NABRO: Equality or Social Injustice?”

Chapter 3: Pre-Game Rituals

* Required Readings
o “The Art of Lining Up”
o “Sketching Great and Creative Posters and Banners for Your Favorite Players”
o “Scalpers and Where To Find Them”
o “Reserving Seats for Friends in Upper A and Upper B”
* Optional Readings
o “How to Jump From the Gen Ad to Upper B: A Step-By-Step Guide”
o “How to Jump From Upper B to Upper A: A Step-By-Step guide”

Chapter 5: Game Time

* Required Readings:
o “Developing Your Endurance”
o “The Psychology Behind Get That Ball”
o “Who are the Gang Green?”
o “Half-time is Game-Time”
o “Fly High” + “The Victory Song”

Chapter 6-A: When the Final Buzzer Beats (In case of Victory)

* Required Readings
o “The Song for Mary and the Proper Way to Sing It”
o “How to sing The Song For Mary and Still Look Cute for Fabilioh.com”
o “How To Argue with Sore Losers in PinoyExchange.com and Gameface.ph”

Chapter 6-B: When the Final Buzzer Beats (In case of Defeat)

* Required Readings:
o “Win or Lose, It’s The School We Choose: Deepening Your Spirituality — The Sesquicentennial Edition”
o “Contemplating on the Meaning of Life: An Introduction”
o “Surviving the Wrath of Fr. Adolfo Dacanay SJ”

Course Requirements

Written Long Test will assess your memorization of the tradition and history of the Ateneo-La Salle rivalry. The test items consist of Multiple Choice questions and an evaluation of True or False statements.

Oral Exam. The student will randomly draw two cheers from a lot. The student must cheer/sing the cheers he picked. Afterwards, he must be able to explain the significance of the cheer/song. He must also be able to identify when these cheers/songs are used.

Practical Exam: The student must line up for tickets. This is a pass or fail exam. If the student is able to acquire a ticket, he automatically gets an A. If he doesn’t get any ticket, he must take the Make-Up Test.

Make-up Test: Negotiating with Scalpers. Students who wish to pass the first practical exam for the course but failed to do so must take the Make-Up test. The student must locate a scalper within the vicinity of Araneta Coliseum. This is not a pass or fail test. The student’s grade depends on how he was able to acquire a good ticket with the lowest possible price. The better the ticket with lower ticket price, the higher the grade.

Final Exam: Students are required to cheer during the game. The grade depends on the voice quality and frequency of the cheering. The Ateneo standard grading system will be applied. Therefore the passing score for the Final Exam is 70%. Students who cannot stand up and cheer 70% of the time automatically fail the exam.

Bonus points are given to students who are able to convince others to cheer loudly, either through a well-articulated speech or forceful coercion. Extra points are also awarded to fans who make creative banners for their favorite players.

Written Long Test: 20%
Oral Exam: 20%
Practical Exam: 20%
Final Exam: 40%

Course Policies and Other Reminders

1. Plagiarism. Plagiarism is an extreme offense. Do not copy cheers from other schools.
2. Cellphone Use. Using your cellphone to place in bets is illegal. Do not get yourself into trouble.
3. Cuts. Once you are inside Araneta, you are not allowed to leave. You must watch all four quarters. Win or lose, you are not allowed to leave before the Song for Mary is sung.

ONE

BIG

FIGHT

The rivalry is well underway

Here we are.

Blue vs Green

In the arena of choice.

Game 1 aptly summed up in these images:

Not in my house, douchebag.

TELL ME HOW MY ASS TASTES!

Giving you DOMINANCE all the way from Bacolod.

Nonoy is god.

[cheers to this guy and this guy]

Stolen from die-hard, blue-blooded Double Agent.

GAME 2.

BRING IT, BITCH.

Dutdutan 08

When life hands you lemons, lick, shoot, suck.

Being the life loser that I am, I pulled myself out of bed and decided to just tell the world to fuck off and go to Dutdutan 08 all by myself. Mass text message nagging everyone I knew did not score me any dates. At least Jabatites was nice enough to hook me up with his nephew. Chano was muy cool and put me in the list.

The rides were not bad, they weren’t awesome either. A couple of mentionables top the list like an orange Camaro, a matte black ride (that I can’t remember the name *hangs head in shame*), and a TOTALLY BAD ASS IMPALA. And that jet black ride came with equally bad ass men who look like they could beat your hood rat ass. Choppers and bikes littered outside the  venue as well.

The walls along the exhibit halls were lined up with booths and booths of each tattoo shop. There were people getting tatts for themselves and , some, willing canvasses for the Tattoo of the Day. The center area was left open for the crowd to move about. This turned out to be a brilliant idea as there were already a couple of people stacking beer cups as fast as they could drink the beer. Little did I know that this beer cup tower would become an essential element to the night.

There were tattoos everywhere! (Thank you, Captain Obvious.) But I was seriously thisclose to getting one myself. Though the thought of needle on my skin made me shrivel in fear, the whole setup was pretty cool. It was an exhibit and there were competitions but everyone was pretty much laid back. I mean, they weren’t trying to outdo each other. They just went on their merry way. It was a little weird to have people looking (at taking pictures) of artwork WHILE the artist was working. That is practically unheard of from a painter, a musician, or a writer. I mean, can you imagine if you were trying to paint or write a song and there was some random dude behind you, peering over your shoulder, taking  pictures of your unfinished work?

While I was taking it easy and snapping the graffiti, I ran into a couple of people I would never have thought to see there. Not because they’re not the type to be in that sort of exhibit but because they were Teh Douchebag’s friends. One and the same friends who I went up to Baguio with when The Izzy was still in my tummy. It was just so surreal seeing the Tattooed Twosome, Do-you-drugs Dex and Mommy Yheng. We caught up a little and grabbed a bite somewhere.

As the Tattoed Twosome and I were finishing smokes outside, I saw someone else I wouldn’t have thought to run into again. I stepped into his walking path and confronted, “Flip Cup Golangco. I never thought I’d see you in ‘ere parts.” Yes, one and the same Flip Cup Golangco that I just met at the 4-way birthday bash weeks back. Flip Cup Golangco spotted a couple of friends that we immediately integrated to our own growing pool of unusual tambays. Flip Cup Golangco’s friends, Jop and Towering Temo, would turn out to be our spotters for the night. They fetched beer, carried bags, and took pictures for when my stature couldn’t reach any higher. In return, we introduced them to hot chicks. This arrangement worked well for us.

With the promise of hot men and tattoos, I got Clinically Insane to get off of her ass and drive all the way to Makati. And my officemate, Miss Noticeable, to follow when I rattled off bands rumored to play til the wee hours of the morning.

No one can rock an event quite like Uneditedmara can. And to think I started this day out all by myself. *beams proudly* As the night wore on, Beer Cup Tower Dudes were really stacking it up. Little by little we contributed to the towering plastic architecture. From time to time they encountered a crash or two or eleven and they just kept rebuilding the damn thing. It’s kinda hard making a tower of beer cups where you’re inebriated yourself. You KNOW that thing can’t get that high when you’re hammered.

More bands played. The Tattooed Twosome bounced earlier and so did Clinically Insane. There were more friends to be had as Miss Noticeable and I talked up Beer Cup Tower Dudes. At this point, Jop and Towering Temo where no where to be found. We suspect that they went backstage after the Bikini Contest to scope out some fine, fine ass. Whatever makes them happy, I say.

Beer Cup Tower Dudes were a RIOT to hang out with. Not just coz one of them had the hots for Miss Noticeable (which worked out VERY WELL to my advantage. She had me as a wing woman and she never left me without a FREE beer in hand), but because they were all just chillax. Some of them promised a beach vacay in La Unuin, free tongue rings, and free tatts. That’s what Miss Noticeable gets you.

The whole night was sheer insanity and lunacy. You rock out to a band and inadvertently hit someone, you just turn around and say, “Oh I’m sorry! Friends?” Yeah. Shame is for the mornings, m’friends. Tonight, we dine in hell! My phonebook grew twice it’s size by that night alone. No one knows if they gave the right number or took down the right name. As Chano said, “One love”.

The insanity started pretty early thus I called it quits a little after midnight as everyone was just sitting on the steps outside the venue hall wasted and high, but not after insulting Miss Noticeable’s boy toy, Fries, and his prepubescent LA SALLITE friend, Jeco and accusing them of being gay lovers. I remember screaming profanities at fellow BisDak Tom and tapping strange people to ask them if they knew Chano because they look like they had the same shirt. Yeah, I know. Whattalogic, Mara. Introductions led me to say that I was a writer (of sorts) and with such words came a freelance offer. I only pray that I wrote down my number and rememberd to spell my email correctly. No matter, I left sweaty and stinky and  piss drunk on WARM beer. Rocking out at Dutdutan 08 was the most fun I’ve had without having to take my clothes off.

Salamat sa tulak, a song post

Aaminin akong medyo nahihirapan ako. KASI NAMAN MATAAS ANG BAR. Pwede na nating ibaba ng kaunti? Para naman kahit papano lumigaya ako. Mahirap tapatan ang ganung libel. Mapapagod na lang ako kakahanap ng makakaabot nun. Mababato na lang ako kakaantay. Hindi niya ako binigyan ng dahilan kung bakit kailangan kong panindigan ang sinabi ko noong naglasing ako at may isang nakakahiyang tawag na nangyari.

“I can’t afford to love her.”

Salamat. Kinailangan kong marinig yun kasi kung anu-ano na ang pumapasok sa utak ko. Kung anu-ano nang kagaguhan ang handa kong gawin. Buti na lang. Tumino ako bigla. Tipong lasing ako tas binuhusan bigla ng malamig na tubig. O kaya’y nagwawala tas sasampalin na lang ng malakas. Salamat sa malamig na tubig. Salamat sa malakas na sampal.

Here lies Uneditedmara. Mahirap siyang mahalin.

Ikanta na lang natin, friends.

The Fear You Won’t Fall
Joshua Radin

Digging a hole and the walls are caving in
Behind me air’s getting thin but I’m trying
I’m breathing in
Come find me
It hasn’t felt like this before
It hasn’t felt like home before you
And I know it’s easy to say but it’s harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can’t get my mind off of you
I know you’re scared that I’ll soon be over it
That’s part of it all
Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won’t fall
It hasn’t felt like this before
It hasn’t felt like home before you
And I know it’s easy to say but it’s harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should than I thought I could
Can’t get my mind off of you
And I hate the phone
But I wish you’d call
Thought being alone
Was better than was better than
And I know it’s easy to say but it’s harder to feel this way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can’t get my mind off of you
Can’t get my mind off of you
And I know it’s easy to say but it’s harder to feel
This way
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can’t get my mind off of you

Forgive me Father for I have sinned

It has been ages since my last confession and I have been a naughty, naughty girl.

Reverend Brian Darling of Dirty Sexy Money. Or Glen Fitzgerald, if you prefer.

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Favorite lines:
Brian Darling: *mouths to Nick George* I hate you.

Brian Darling: *to his son* You cunning little turd.

.

Glen, you be the vicar, I’ll be the tart.
*fans self*

I Heart(break) You

Taken from Anet.

Let’s start a game and see how many people you can identify with in each number. This should be fun. And emotionally scarring. It must be completed while one is PISS DRUNK though. This is like the drunken phonecalls, except without shame in the morning. Hold on to your hearts, kids. We’re going in.

***

1. The world can be so confusing. You wait for the one you love. The one you don’t love, waits for you. But the saddest thing of all… you love him, he loves you, but fate doesn’t want you to be together.

2. Love that we can not have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest.

3. Sometimes, even though you already love someone, it’s still possible to fall in love with somebody else. If that happens to you, and you’re forced to choose… follow your heart and choose the person who you’ll be happy with. Even if it’s not me, as long as you’re happy.

4. Letting go doesn’t always mean, “It’s over.”  Breaking up would not mean, “I’ve had enough.” Instead, it’s as good as saying, “I don’t want to see you sad anymore, go on, you deserve someone better.”

5. When you walked by, I told my friend, “I loved that guy.”  My friend asked me, “So why did you let him go?”.  I answered, “If he were MINE, do you think I’ll ever let him go?”

6. The worst feeling isn’t being lonely. It’s being forgotten by someone you could never forget.

7. I was first hurt by someone I really love. I didn’t want to give up, even if it hurts. But one day… I did. Why? Because I got so tired and exhausted. I realized how hard it is to love someone who’s not meant for you.

8. It hurts when the one you love left you and said, “You deserve someone better.”  Then all you can say is… “Maybe I do.”  But deep inside you’re crying coz you know you can’t find “BETTER”  when you already found the “BEST.”

9. It’s hard to realize and to accept when the one you love has to go… it hurts but you say, “I can survive this”.  But tears fall ’cause what you really mean is… “Oh God, what’s gonna happen to me?”

10. I feel sad when I don’t get to see you. I get hurt each time you ignore me. I’m jealous when I see you with somebody else. Gosh! I want to keep you all to myself. But then I realized… I don’t have the right. Coz you’re not mine.

11. I fought for you because I love you. I didn’t give up on you even though it was difficult. But when you said to me, “Sorry, I’m tired”,  my heart was shattered. Not because I saw everything I worked for go down the drain, but because you left me fighting alone.

12. I loved you though I know it’s wrong. I waited for you for so long. I gave you my all until there’s nothing left for myself. I did everything for you. But is it enough for you to love me? Or is it enough for me to finally give up?

13. I got tired of waiting for you… I don’t wanna get hurt anymore. So I’m gonna stop hoping and I’ll try to move on… but I’ll walk away slowly… real slow… so if by any chance you wanna stop me, you can still catch up.

14. I’ve done the bravest thing in my life. I let go of someone I love so much. But as I did the bravest thing, I never felt weaker. All I did was cry and wish that, I hope I was never that brave.

15. I wish I never met him. I wish I didn’t trust and hope too much. I wish I didn’t put myself up just to get hurt. But when I remember how much he made me happy, I go back to being stupid.

16. Time will come, you’ll get mad at me. Time will come, you’ll ask me why I left you. But when that time comes, this is all I have to say, “It’s not that I left you, it’s because you let me go.”

17. Did you ever love someone but you had to let them go, you thought they don’t love you, never cared. One day, you see that person again, already with a kid. You ask them, what’s the name of the kid, they smiled and said, “Same as yours.”

18. Your ex-love gave her wedding invitation to you personally when suddenly a tear rolled down from your eyes. She wiped it immediately and said, “You’re the one I want to be with… but you didn’t fight for me.”

19. When I was a child, I wanted to grow up and fall in love. Now that I’ve grown up and falling, how I wish I was still a child… coz it’s easier to heal a broken knee than a broken heart!

20. People say that love is the best gift anyone could give and have… my heart was crushed and I asked myself: Isn’t it tragic when I’ve got so much love to give, yet no one seems to want it?

21. Sometimes there would come a time when we have to stop loving someone. Why? Not because the person started hating us, but because we ran out of reasons to fight for what we feel.

22. Teach me how to be strong before you go. Teach me how to believe if you ever lie. Teach me how to control my tears before I start to cry. And please, teach me how to make you stay before you say goodbye.

23. It’s hard to live alone. It’s harder to choose someone to love.  But the hardest part of loving is to admit that you’ve fallen for someone who can never be yours.

24. When you fall in love, don’t give everything without leaving something for yourself… someday, somehow, it would be too late for you to realize that you’ve given all for the wrong one, without saving something for the right one…

25. I don’t run from you, I walk away slowly. And it kills me because you don’t care enough to stop me.

26. Life is ironic! Sometimes you keep on crying even if the guy neglects you, but you get surprised one day that just when you stopped crying and found someone new, that’s when he starts crying over losing you…

27. When I die, there’s just one thing I ask… I hope you’re there crying for me. But on the other hand, never mind. Why? Coz I don’t wanna see you cry, on the arms of someone else.

28. Loving someone can sometimes be exhausting. No matter how much you love a person, time will come when you have to give that person up, not because you don’t love him anymore, but because you’re hurting too much coz he can’t take care of you.

29. Up to where can you prove your love for someone? What will you do if that someone asks you, “Do you really love me?”, then tells you, “If yes, then set me free.”

Never regret the choices you have made. Just believe in yourself and have faith. Life is not perfect; it is a blend of joy and sorrow. But whatever life leads you, it is because of God’s purpose!

WHAT NUMBER CAN YOU RELATE TO?

Winner! Winner! Chicken dinner!

*cuts self*