The Pursuit of Happiness

If happiness made me THIS gorgeous, I’d gladly give up my “too aggressive” lifestyle.

HAPPY
Leona Lewis
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[Official video SO worth watching; cried bukkits]

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
Cause love won’t set you free
I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i’m just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
But all these days, they feel like they’re the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can’t stand by your side, ohh no
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i’m just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So any turns that I can’t see,
like I’m a stranger on this road
But don’t say victim
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

<3

Better in time

Sometimes when you’ve had your heart broken and then you try to move on, you can bypass the grief, the pain, and the emptiness. Sometimes, when you quickly replace it with something else, you barely feel the sting of past hurts. But then after a while, it comes back to haunt you, and it’s more painful. You thought you had moved on and was happy, but the truth was you were just masking all that sorrow with something else. The wounds would never completely heal and you know you will never be completely and perfectly happy ever again. I need to say that I feel betrayed. That no matter how much I say “I’m fine”, I’m really not. And sometimes I just wonder how he could ever bring himself to do this to me.

I loved you Xabi Alonso. I really did. And you go and sleep with a son of a motherfuckingputa Real Madrid?? How could you?? How am I to go on without you? Everyone thinks this is all for the better because you’re not happy. But what about MY happiness?? What about what I want? And what I need? I need you. I want you.

But I guess that’s just how it goes, no? You leave when there’s something better. Leave then. Thanks for the memories. I want to say that we’ll be friends but we won’t. So let’s not bother being nice to each other. There’s no reason for that.

Goodbye.

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time